Hello again,
I'm meant to be doing homework right now but I don't really care. Today is fathers day but in all honesty, I don't particully like my dad. He always has a go at me.
Yesterday he gave me a 5 second warning he was going to clean my fish tank and had a go at me as I hadn't cleaned my desk.
But I know this is probably just a teenagery thing.
My Grandad was also here but I don't really like him either. He always says innapropraite stuff.
Yesterday I had an all day rehersal for Matilda, I'm only the chorus though. I don't know why I even bother with all that stuff coz I always get the crap roles. I can't even hit high notes anymore. My first performance is tomorrow for all change day (or something like that)
No big update on Ben either I just know he doesn't like me back.
QOTD
We were born to be real, not to be perfect
Sunday 21 June 2015
Wednesday 17 June 2015
Hai,
I just posted the one from 12th but I forgot to upload it on the 12th so I just did it now...
Luckily, my time as a sociopath is over, it was just a short phase.
I spoke to Ben yesterday :). I may seem like a teenage girl here but HE WAS TALKING TO ME ON SNAPCHAT WITH HIS SHIRT OFF. How am I meant to deal with this. I no longer see Holly as a threat, I mean I have a connection to Ben, where she doesn't.
Ben lives a hour away from me but I'll see him when I visit my cousins. We have so much in common, we like the same subjects and we both love rugby and athtletics. He is so perfect, he's kind, caring, smart, creative, good at art, drama, good at P.E and is very fit. Even Lena said he was a 9/10 in looks.
Over last week my depression came back which was really sad. I said it came back as I had depression for over a year and stopped around middle of May. I tried to hang myself twice but everytime I heard someone come up so I stopped. I was afraid to tell anyone as I didn't feel like they cared. But last week it came back and I was so scared. At the weekend I just didn't care and now I'm just normal again
Well thats all for today, see you again soon
QOTD:
Sometimes the smallest things take the most room in your heart.
I just posted the one from 12th but I forgot to upload it on the 12th so I just did it now...
Luckily, my time as a sociopath is over, it was just a short phase.
I spoke to Ben yesterday :). I may seem like a teenage girl here but HE WAS TALKING TO ME ON SNAPCHAT WITH HIS SHIRT OFF. How am I meant to deal with this. I no longer see Holly as a threat, I mean I have a connection to Ben, where she doesn't.
Ben lives a hour away from me but I'll see him when I visit my cousins. We have so much in common, we like the same subjects and we both love rugby and athtletics. He is so perfect, he's kind, caring, smart, creative, good at art, drama, good at P.E and is very fit. Even Lena said he was a 9/10 in looks.
Over last week my depression came back which was really sad. I said it came back as I had depression for over a year and stopped around middle of May. I tried to hang myself twice but everytime I heard someone come up so I stopped. I was afraid to tell anyone as I didn't feel like they cared. But last week it came back and I was so scared. At the weekend I just didn't care and now I'm just normal again
Well thats all for today, see you again soon
QOTD:
Sometimes the smallest things take the most room in your heart.
Hey again
Today, I come to terms that I am a sociopath.
I don't give a s*** about what anyone thinks about me anymore and I don't give a s*** back. After yesterday I've lost the ability to feel any emotions except anger. I already knew I was anti- social but I didn't realise. I spoke to John about it and he thinks he's a sociopath as well so at least I ain't alone.
It's meant to be a festival for 1000 years since the Magna Carta was signed but it's been raining all day so isn't particually very good. At the moment I am listening to death metal, It's come to grow on me.
So that's about it for today
Quote of the day:
"Forget what hurt you but never forget what it taught you"
12/06/15
I don't give a s*** about what anyone thinks about me anymore and I don't give a s*** back. After yesterday I've lost the ability to feel any emotions except anger. I already knew I was anti- social but I didn't realise. I spoke to John about it and he thinks he's a sociopath as well so at least I ain't alone.
It's meant to be a festival for 1000 years since the Magna Carta was signed but it's been raining all day so isn't particually very good. At the moment I am listening to death metal, It's come to grow on me.
So that's about it for today
Quote of the day:
"Forget what hurt you but never forget what it taught you"
12/06/15
Friday 12 June 2015
Hai there,
If you clicked on this it probably means you are compeletly bored or doing homework (which is more or less the same thing)
I want this to be anonymous so my name will be... Rachael. I've always like that name.
I don't really have a best friend, but I have a few good friends (all names below are fake)
John
Kat
Lena
Holly
Everything else I post will be true...
So recently I met this boy, lets say his name is Ben. I knew Ben before as he is my cousin's friend and we used to play minecraft together (I know sad) but I never met him until last saturday.
It was my uncle in laws party so we went and he was there. We had an amazing time but he lives an hour away. As soon as I left I realised I loved him.
I told Holly about him but I didn't tell her I loved him. I told Lena though and she is really supportive of the situation. On wednesday I talked via instagram to Ben and i thought there was hope but i accidently posted something on my snapchat story
I was trying to talk to Lena, saying i was talking to him but it got uploaded. I didn't realise until a hour afterwords and by that time, he had already seen it. I was mortified.
So everythings calmed down but now Holly has started chatting him up through instagram. They were talking about me and Holly told him I liked him (I hadn't told her, she worked it out) and he said "that's cute". He rated her a 9/10 on hotness level and puts around 6 x's after each convasation.
By now I have lost hope. Holly is much prettier than I am so I have no chance.
If someone did bother to read this then please comment on what I should do
Pointless world xx
If you clicked on this it probably means you are compeletly bored or doing homework (which is more or less the same thing)
I want this to be anonymous so my name will be... Rachael. I've always like that name.
I don't really have a best friend, but I have a few good friends (all names below are fake)
John
Kat
Lena
Holly
Everything else I post will be true...
So recently I met this boy, lets say his name is Ben. I knew Ben before as he is my cousin's friend and we used to play minecraft together (I know sad) but I never met him until last saturday.
It was my uncle in laws party so we went and he was there. We had an amazing time but he lives an hour away. As soon as I left I realised I loved him.
I told Holly about him but I didn't tell her I loved him. I told Lena though and she is really supportive of the situation. On wednesday I talked via instagram to Ben and i thought there was hope but i accidently posted something on my snapchat story
I was trying to talk to Lena, saying i was talking to him but it got uploaded. I didn't realise until a hour afterwords and by that time, he had already seen it. I was mortified.
So everythings calmed down but now Holly has started chatting him up through instagram. They were talking about me and Holly told him I liked him (I hadn't told her, she worked it out) and he said "that's cute". He rated her a 9/10 on hotness level and puts around 6 x's after each convasation.
By now I have lost hope. Holly is much prettier than I am so I have no chance.
If someone did bother to read this then please comment on what I should do
Pointless world xx
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